Pg. 58 of an Unwritten Memoir

We were restless, 

it seems, 

to ascend

and to be justified 

in our silly little ruts 

of identity.

We had been programmed, 

filtered of our instincts

and left to abscond 

from temptation.

Now, 

 in this burning shard 

of what safety remains 

after the rise 

of global aggressions, 

humanity winces 

as toxic smoke 

fills our veins 

and the Sun

is black in the sky.

We know, 

of course, 

that it was indeed 

the fault 

of all the pollutions, 

the endless wars in Asia, 

and the meltdown 

in Iran.

What we could not 

have predicted, 

however, 

was the ambient 

sense of regret

for our brutal 

lack of preparedness 

and tact.

Here, 

in the sickly wisdom

of the 23rd century,

we hold on like vultures

to the dwindling threads 

of our humanity;

the ice was our master, 

and we became slaves.


Rough Around the Edges



to swine, to kings, to rough rotten things,
my allegiances stand on their own.
to fear! to spite! to more lonely nights,
left to worship my temples alone.

well it could be worse,
and it could be over,
and i would be free 
to sail as i please.
but without me mates,
wats the point of the days?
cept to sit around hoping to change,
o to sit around waiting to change.

A Poem About Hugs

Embrace: a cherished blessing, 
my chosen voice, 
and the greatest conduit between 
ones first taste of another
and the present moment 
justly connecting these
humans together.
Bleeding heart to thumping chest;
reminded by the plush solidity 
of another astral body that
(in these tightening seconds)
our similarities can trump 
the distance between. 



For it is with 
LOVE
that we encounter 
such satisfactions;
and without pretension to mute 
our pulse's rhythmic shudder,
we are left to enjoy 
the fleeting grasp
of mutual intentions 
in the space that we now share.

Sworny

For the loves that I've lost, for the moments that I treasure, and in honor of the deities that found their way into my lives...
To you, to the selves I still remember, to her, to us...


... I dance, but not with limbs and skins. I shimmy my way into new oblivions. I speak with words and silence and motion and glances and rhythm. I am grateful. I am humbled. I listen to the tempo of your words in my ears, to the sounds we make in harmony. I taste the ways I felt and feel and know and forgot like dark, rich chocolate splinters on a drunken tongue.

Shelter's Falling Around You And I Am The Wicked Wind

I cannot help, assist, or profit.
The pit in my stomach growls to the vibration of your circumstance,
but no channel persists between our empathies.
I am so thankful for this life I have been afforded by either luck, lust, or the illusion of fate

dead to me in twos and threes,
sweet lovers' parting eulogies
ascend my faith
and break my taste,
for who could stand to tether me?
As when done drunk and cummed
seemed unusually dumb,
and the tension of terror returned,
relationships burst into suns
eclipsing the two into ones.


repulsion

on the other side of charisma and good fortune lies an epiphany drenched in fevered antiquity: what was once absolute may become absurd, challenges could shift into reflections, and this tedium that drowns us might one day teach us to swim.

Paths

I lost you back there
My wife, my life
set free into the cold wind,
into this sea of faces,
surrounded by the ever-shifting
competition of indifferences.
You left me right here.
The surfacing emotions
bleed me out
into a vessel
forged in fear,
brutality, and regret.

Almost

sun beams sway hot hands away
and the hesitance seems to relate;
for a million years
you'd have found me here
until yesterday when I strayed.

No, it wont make sense in this passioned suspense,
left in stasis like hopes and requests.
now the beams have cooled
into something brand new
and i'll follow until there's none left.

compassion at the threshold of chaos

silent tea
rs fought bac
k by her nature
but i hear the s
orrow gently cr
y out...
tim
ing still aj
ar and yet always pe
rfect
when i reme
mber that i ne
ver forgot.


Djembe

There's a beast inside, a clawed type of snarl; 
like a madman unleashed to favor:

Hands are the extensions of my honor.

I reach out from old oblivions to spit,
break, and twist the tempo into subjugation.
if only to tear the shreds to pieces



Sensually swinging sins surrounding,
and she begs me to let it all end.
Pushing through the pain,
the pleasure, we've been
granted these few sacred realizations
their chance at becoming. 

No mercy! Unrelenting savagery, raw aptitude, 
and sweating bullets; the dancers circled in pace, fully bequeathed
with the tasseled jewels and swaying hips of the raqs sharqi.
United by heat, transformed by desire, and sentenced to euphoria;
we swooned like wolves in this sweat-thickened parlor by the coast,
drenched in magic, doused in light.

Inside Love and Looking Out

As though our parallel fates were conspiring to tempt and temper in cohesion,
I too saw the sun rise and fall over the heads of such primal thirsts.

It is just too fucking ironic; or perhaps, like a weighted scale
tipped in all's favor, we are still tied at the ankle.

Like a slingshot's rotation around the Earth in all this empty space,
sent rocketing through eternity by the explosive tenderness
that compensated for the damage absorbed by my tiny giant body,
I have landed in the desert after one hell of a journey, only to find utopia.

They are in love out here, and I am but a vessel.



Unending celebrations were cut short and resumed, to trumpet the irony
of the forward pull of eternity, pushing and writhing like a fetus
sent to abandon incubation... only to find utopia, in ruins.

But we built back its temples, and then summoned its gods;
shining more brightly for its charmingly apparent battle wounds,
the city lived and breathed with renewed self-amnesty.


They are in love out here, and I am but a vessel.

renegades



torch's flame
would caress my fire;
in forest's wind
i become the mulch;
points of light
like our canopy's worship;
bodies freed
set afloat by the dawn.

awkward sideways

ruined sheets moistly blanketing my pillows
while this absence opened up the same old wound.
i've heard of betrayal, like a song that's passed my way
a thousand times until its stuck inside my head

we've lost a friend, we've lost a foe
we've gained perspective and we know
that nothing quite turns out the way it should
she's got to go, she's broken so
there is no way to fight the flow
when time is cruel and misery is understood

Keeping the Mustache

Insight:
Amelioration
Masking;

Underneath, 
Growing
Larger,
Yearning.

Newman...

Love is a tapestry of textures and moments